In the beginning

So here I am. I guess this is the post where I spill my lardy soul. Why do I want to lose weight seems to be the big question. And the big answer is (truthfully) because I'm vain. I have lost a lot of weight in the past. Its a good thing. I know I can do it. But I've stopped. Its a combo of things and I've decided to start again.

I'm doing this for me. I like the feeling of being active. I recently switched jobs and have been sitting behind a desk for the past three weeks. In the beginning it was fine, I was sick and needed to chill out. But now I'm better and I feel like I'm going to POP by mid afternoon.

I don't fit into my jeans anymore.

I'm doing this because I like the feeling of being active. Life just seems... better.

I want to lose weight. That's my aim. My goal is to lose 15kg by new year. A totally manageable goal. Ideally I'd like to lose 20kg, but that is a dream. If I hit 15kg I'll set new goals.

My little goals... I have those. My first goal is to fit into my old jeans. Then I want to fit into them with no muffin top. Then I want to team those jeans with a green singlet that I sooo love, but is tight. That should take me to my pre christmas weight. And its a good start.

From there my immediate goals go in 5kg increments. I want appropriately wear size 16 jeans, and then into size 14 jeans. I don't aspire to size 12. That's too far away right now and would be easy to lose sight of.

I want to turn heads when I go past. I want guys to notice me. Not because I want them, but because its my right as a female. I have asked everybody to send me copies of any pics they have of me circa christmas. I'm going to put them into my phone. So if I ever go out and start umming and ahhing about healthy vs greasy, I can simply open my phone and see a pic to reinforce my willpower. I'm going to take a picture of my singlet top and put it on the fridge, to stop browsing behaviour.

Its going to be a long, hard slog. Outside the gym I intend to chose healthy options. My eating style at home won't change much. Its already pretty healthy, but not perfect. Hey, a girl's gotta be happy! I intend to make smarter choices when I go out for lunch and dinners. Starting now.