Friday, March 5, 2010

Hello, is this thing on?

Ok. So. Its been a while. Last we heard, I was super skinny, super sexy, and a fucking champion. And now...

I'm fat again.

Fuck.







I had a bit of a mental meltdown. Ate everything in sight. Lost my gym mojo. Well, really, who could blame me. I have all but stopped the gym at the moment. I am now doing outdoor bootcamp 3 nights a week. And loving it. I have just finished a six week course. New fitness testing Monday.

On Monday I'm going to publish my weight and measurement. And a new diet plan I've written up. I need this blog to lose weight successfully.

3 comments:

MissE said...

*hugs*
Okay, Phish.
You can do this.
You can do it slow and steady.
You can do it and make it work.
I know you can do it because I did.
It has taken me 5 years (the past 3.5 years have been the ones that I've really been actively trying) but I've done it. From 140kg+ to 94kg.
If I can do this, you can.
Slow and steady.
Let's be tortoises not hares.
(God, I hope that all comes across right.)

And please know, I'm here for you. As helpful as I can be from this distance... but here.

phishez said...

Aww Em. YOU are the reason that I've started the blog again. You are my weight loss buddy. I couldn't do it without you, and right now I need the support.

MissE said...

Okay... so I'm bright red with the blushing right now.

I know that for me, the big battle was recognising what triggers my over-eating. And it used to be when I was depressed or low. These days those emotions actually make me not want to eat. My danger trigger is boredom.

And I have entire days where I eat poorly... like today. Started with a decent breakfast (but I really need to stop making two pieces of toast - I don't need them... and yet I see the two slots and feel the need to fill them) but then it was a bunch of homemade choc-chip cookies, sausages in bread, cinema popcorn, and KFC to fill the rest of the day.

So not a really healthy day.

But I can either beat myself up about it... or just go "Damn. Oh well, move on."

What I do need to remember is that I F***ING HATE KFC!! OMG! SERIOUSLY! I cannot stand that shit and yet I will buy it and EAT IT. I'm a MORON!

Okay - rant over. Can you remind me that I hate KFC, Steph? GOD! It's soooo stupid.

But where was I? Oh yeah... I admire your ability to organise and structure your food choices, mate. The moment I do that (well, try to do that) I rebel against myself and go eat shitty food. It's so juvenile and stupid. But I've learned that I do not do well with strict dietary plans. I try to just go with the flow... I have just changed the things that feature predominantly in that flow.

Not being able to eat garlic, onion, egg, and crustaceans... really helped with that.

Annnyway - nuff from me.
I am, as I said, here for you. I have faith in you and in your ability to make this work for you. You will find your flow and go with it.

We all fall off the "wagons" at some point, Steph. It's whether we choose to get back on them that's the really important part.

HUGS HUGS HUGS!